♥ Friday, July 27, 2007
If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.
My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you.
Forget who hurt you yesterday,
But don't forget who loves you tenderly today.
i cried & i cried like a bitch.
i am just typing how i feel in here,
thats what a blog's for aint it?
& hope there wont be another quarrel due to this post,
never the same again.
after sooo many quarrels,
i am sure none can ever be the same again.
for every couple.
things may be bad at times.
but whatever it is,
i wont ever want you to be unhappy.
hope you understand.
i do love you one,
and never would have hurt you,
if i knew by doing so,
i would never have likethat .
& i felt sooo hurt & disappointed at that time,
i mean i do.
tho im sure every quarreling couple sure say that,
blah blah.
but i really meant what i say when i say i feel hurt.
i have never ever felt this way with any one else.
no one, i mean no one has ever speak to me in such a way,
yet, i am not saying tht you treat me bad.
but i just felt soo hurt since it was someone whom i loved, (the most)
cant help but feel that ,
thgs arent what they used to be,
quarrels are occuring for small reason,
voice are being raised more often.
yet i dont deny, i have an attitude.
but isnt that what you know alr?
my attitude is not what everyone can tolerate,
yet i am grateful to have you ,
to try to .
but, at times you dont seemed to get somethgs,
mayb i dont too.
but i hope every night that the next day will be fine for us,
cos i love you too much to spend my time quarrelling with you.
i have chnge so much,
soo much to the point that at times,
i dont even know who am i anymore.
i dont want to compare,
i am not saying i change more for you,
if it was the past,
i wont even have the chance to feel so xin ku.
i wont even listen or complete the con & just hang.
this is me.
yet , i did not hang,
i dont need you to feel grateful for me changing,
i just hope you'll know,
even not now, i hope in the future you will.
simply becos you are my baby,
& i love you more than anythg.
mayb you'd sensed how much i care for you & how impt,
you are to me.
i believe i am not asking for too much now.
i only thg that some thgs are not to be controlled,
like how i speak, my character & my way of doing thgs,
if not that wont be me anymore.
den you are not loving me at all,
you just want a controlled toy.
if iwere to force you to change then,
i am sure i am not loving you truly any longer.
tho , stuffs like that always happen,
& the feelings might fade a lil or anythg,
but , i think our love will still stay strong.
i cant & i wont deny,
all these small stuffs are making me irritated with you at times.
i might feel a lil too tired to continue in this,
but i will never give up,
till, i realise that there is no point in continuing anymore.
hmm,
quarrels are somethg everybody has to go thru,
but thgs are getting too far.
i dont want to quarrel for every freak reason,
&& thinks its normal.
i want to be able to sit down & talking thgs out,
nicely.
not saying somethg out & leads to quarrels everytime.
true true,
who wants to quarrel ?
yet no matter what happens,
i know in the end,
i love you baby.
here's a story i read about,
A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.
The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.
When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.
What do you think were the four words?
The husband just said "I Love You Darling"
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No
point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.
Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness,
If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.
Fulin's Nana @ 12:48 AM
