♥ Tuesday, August 7, 2007
melanie = less than dota
They asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.
I replied:
I don't regret any of my feelings
or things I did with him,
because when I look at him I see something
different than what everyone else can see.
When I'm with him,
I feel a feeling that no one or
being anywhere else can give me.
When I kissed him,
my world around me melted.
When he held me in his arms
and rested his head on mine,
I forgot everything but my world
that was holding me.
Even though all of you may see
something in him that is so horrible,
all I see is all the positive,
and special moments that
he ever shared with me.
The only thing that I regret
is listening to everyone else,
because if I had listened to my heart,
I wouldnt have been hurt soo deep.
its been a long time since i cried so long,
since i cried soo hard.
i am trying to not cry for you,
cause every tear is just one more reminder that,
i dont know how to let you go.
i tot i meant the most to you,
i tot you'll say dont know,
i tot you'll keep finding me,
i tot you'll be here when i need you the most.
i tot you'll worry when i say i want to disappear.
i tot i meant more then that game.
& i never expected that you leave me alone ,
when i need you the most,
for a game.
everythg's what i tot.
i had a conflict with someone who means alot to me,
i am sick,
to the extend of not able to move ard,
i just need someone here with me.
tell me,
am i being disappointing?
am i being ridiculous?
i guess, i dont matter anymore.
but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right? If ever I made a mistake, its not that I love you, its that i pin too much hope,& that i love you tooo much.
My friends are always telling
me to move on, to give up.
But why? Why should I?
They don't see you the way that I see you.
They don't look into your eyes and see the world.
Why would they understand?
They can't possibly imagine what,
it means to look at your best friend
and see all their hopes and dreams come true.
I wish for once, just once,
they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn't need to walk that far,
they would just take one step and suddenly,
they would take back every bit of
'getting over you' advice they had
ever given me and realize you're my life,
you were meant for me,
and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.
that love is just way too much. Every time I follow my heart,
it leads me to you.
I mean, what other explanation is there.
Why is it that you're all I can think about?
Why is it that no matter how upset I am.
I see you and I can't help but smile?
Why is it that when you smiles at me.
I get that feeling in my stomach?
And even when you'd broken my heart,
and hurt me as much as anyone could ever hurt me.
why then did I still feel those same feelings?
Answer me that, and then I'll tell you
why I let you hurt me so much.
its too much too bear.
Fulin's Nana @ 10:17 PM
