Because all i want, is to be happy ♥.

♥ Thursday, August 2, 2007

There are times when I cant decide
whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do,
the fact that you dont see me the way
that I see you hurts me even more .

mayb i am just not good enough,
perhaps i am just being unfair or unreasonable,
mayb i am just too spoilt,
mayb just mayb,

just not good enough,
perhaps,
everythg has changed,

i feel so jaded,
there are so many thgs in my mind,
& you know it,
yet,

i am not saying you arent understanding enough,
i am not saying that i am totally in right or anythg.

my frens are very impt to me,
extremely impt.
i am not saying you are not,
you are too.
but there are different degrees of importance.

i think,
mayb we dont understand each other well enough yet,
i admit,
i dont understand you well enough.

yet you knew what happened,
sometimes i realy wonder,
isit becos i tried too hard in the past .
so now i am little tired.

i just want to go out with my frens happily,
reached home happily,
& talk to you happily.

i know you want it too.
but, did you think of how i felt?
sigh,

mayb just mayb.
our characters ,
our temper,
just dont fit.

i dont know anymore,
all i know is that,
i really need understanding & love.

this post is never meant to hurt,
i think i am a very lousy,
very bad girlfren who doesnt understands,
who only wants to win,
who's attitude sucks.
who never ever say "sry" before.

all i know is that,
you are everythg to me.

Fulin's Nana @ 2:10 AM