Because all i want, is to be happy ♥.

♥ Wednesday, October 24, 2007

tell me,
what is it that you really want?

what do you know at all?
you say you know?
tell me now, what isit that I want?

isit really so hard for me to wish for a happy rls-

please, we're not even happy anymore,
arent you tired of quarreling everyday?
fucking everyday.

its really tiring to be in a rls which is full of unhappiness
& quarrels every other day lor,

your words & everythg are lies,
your actions never tally.
dont you find it fucking ridiculous?
fucking nonsensical?
& a total, fucking waste of time.

what did you promise me?
TELL ME LA.
but, come to think of it,
your promises never last la.
BULLSHIT.

den how you expect me to trust you,
MOREOVER, YOU DONT TRUST ME TOO WHAT.

& i fucking hate the fact that you love to compare,
all that's in this rls is all full of lies & hurts.

CHEE BYE.

only when i want to end everythg,
den you try to make thgs better.
IF FROM THE START YOU'VE TRIED,
I WUNDT WANTED TO END IT.

everytime, den you change for the better.
BUT WHATS THE FUCKING POINT?
it never last.

den you're saying i never give in to you?
COMFIRM ANOT?
SO YOU NEVER REALISE HOW
MOTHERFUCKING MUCH I CHANGE FOR YOU LA.
never at all,

fuck la.
dont you know how fucked am i alr feeling?
do you even know how sick i was anot?
I KEEP FEVER-ING.
why do i still wanna attend school?
BECAUSE OF FUCKING YOU LA.
BECAUSE I FUCKING WANNA SEE YOU.

& this is what i get,
i stayed out of class for goddamn what?
ALSO TO FRIGGING WAIT FOR YOU,
DEN GO CLASS TOGETHER.

THIS IS WHAT I FUCKING GET.

so all along,
its been hard for you la?
you being the giver,
& i being the taker huh?

only you've love me la,
i dont love you one la.
only you want to improve thgs,
i dont want to at all.

i never change at all la,

gimme a fucking break man,

BE A MAN LA.

ya my words are always hurting.
BUT,
DONT FUCKING TELL ME,
YOU DONT KNOW THIS IS THE WAY I TALK,
DONT TELL ME THAT,
YOU DONT KNOW MY BARK STINGS MORE THAN MY BITE LA.

FUCK.
if your hearts not in it.

i find it fucking hilarious ok,
you're always promising
& not making your promise true,
how am i to believe now.

i totally lost confidence in us/
in me.

you told me you want to be alone,
since 5 plus,
mother fucking 5 plus.
till now.

thanks for ignoring me.

Fulin's Nana @ 9:59 PM