♥ Friday, July 4, 2008
Second time i hugged baby and cried.
as in really cried.
First was when baby accompanied me to sin ming.
had the sudden urge to go visit my granddad.
so when to pray.
i know he was there, talking to me.
asking me not to cry, telling me to be brave.
advising me that as long as i was willing to admit my mistake.
that i have to be strong.
for i was his favourite grandchildren.
he was right beside me eating the food that i bought for him,
talking bout the vegetarian that i bought.
talking about wrestling.
i know in heaven, he's doing fine.
baby gave me my moment.
and i hugged him and cried.
second was today, after watching this show,
i wudnt cried that way if it was because of the show,
i know i shouldnt have cried that hard.
it doesnt affect me anymore since i have baby with me.
but it just came back for that moment,
for that moment it just felt that way.
sorry baby, i shouldnt have.
i am really contented to have you by my side.
Fulin's Nana @ 12:35 AM